The time has come~

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Enjoy~

So, here I am in english class with nothing to do. We have a report due but I already finished and turned it in, so… I’m sitting at a computer where most everything is blocked, even the ability to look at my art.
So, hey! Let’s write a journal. When boredome strikes, do whatever enters your mind! Lol, yeah right. Like I said, I’m bored. Beyond all reason. Plus it’s… 8:47 in the morning. I don’t do thinking and common sense before 10:45.
Anyway. Just writing to let everyone know I stil exist. I mean, Syd, Anna, Cassy, and Rachel all still knew that, but that’s besides the point. (Did I forget anyone? The communitiy’s always growing.) I’ve been CRAZY BUSY lately, with volunteering and schoolwork and Jazz Band and ARGH. Trying to fit a social life in there is hard enough, let alone anything else. But that’s how spring goes, I guess.
Speaking of spring, I think everyone here has spring fever! Well, not everyone. But I’m having issues with four guys at once! FOUR! This is madness!
…This is not madness! THIS. IS. SPARTAAAAAAAAAAA! *Shot*
But yeah. Just some highlights that I won’t get into since class is going to end soon and I just don’t feel like it:
- I got to see Bill Clinton! He came to my school to give a speech about Hilary before Tuesday’s voting (It worked, huh? PA voted for her. Bleh.) and the Jazz Band played for him. We did this with less that 24 hour’s notice, too! How amazing are we?
- Things are going great with Pat. We’re acting like friends again, and he really seems to be showing in interest in spending time with me.
- Things with my friends are good, too. This makes a happy Andy.
- Things with my family? Not so much, but not going into that.

I’m going to wrap this up before the bell rings and I get caught. Until next time!

This DA account is officially UNDER CONSTRUCTION

Change is a'comin'...

Wow. This is frickin' amazing.

Okay. So, I've been sick this past week. I've had a little bit of everything: Cold, cough, flu, fever... you get the picture. So, I missed school ONE day, but I vegetated the others because I didn't feel well. So, now, I have ALL this backed-up work to do, and a test that I have NO clue what it's on to study for.

Actually, I think it's ameobas or something. Hm.

Anyway. So, I'm thinking about this (And suffering under the weight of my bookbag) and I figured "Well, I'll put up a DA journal and explain that, even though everything's okay and I have an art drive, I have to put sketching on the backburner for a while so I can catch up." Makes sense, right?

Weeeellll... *Bites lip* Last night, when I SHOULD have been doing this backed-up work... I kinda sorta... finished two pictures (Gimmie a little bit and I'll upload them). Way to stick to my plans, huh? Ah well. That's me, the non-conformist!

Instead, I'll put math on the backburner. He lets us turn our homework in late. I can do this. I CAN!

...Pssssh, yeah right.

Progress on homework: 0% (Due to drawing and watching movies and reading manga and going to the mall and drinking coffeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love coffee~)

EDIT: All right. So, I'm majorly confused, since she called that evening and acted like everything was fine. I'm really not happy with her attitude about this (She's blaming me, when it's only partially my fault) and with the outcome, but right now, I'll take what I can get. I haven't got much else, really. I s' pose I'll see how things go, and if it sucks again, I'll bring it up. This time, though, I'll make sure I am heard, too.

Thank you all for your supportive, thoughtful comments, especially Cass. They really helped.

I'll leave it at this: There's been this huge situation with Syd lately, and... it's not going to end pretty. I wish everything could have been different, but it can't be. I'm trying to make the best of it as I can, but... it's not easy. I won't talk about it, since I refuse to be an emo idiot and I refuse to complain about her. She still means so much to me through everything, and I don't think that'll ever be erased.

I was once told that with every ending, there's a beginning that follows... but I see no new beginning in sight. Right now, I see nothingness, and it scares the shit out of me. I'm usually one to face things head on and confront my problems... but, for the first time, I just want to run away. I want to shut my eyes and wake up in a happier time, when everything was okay and I wasn't crying myself to sleep at night.

I've already said too much and sound like an emo. I just... felt a need to explain why I've been... so dead on here for so long...

Well, this is it.

I'll do my best to stick around, but... I dunno how much I'll be drawing or writing in the future. Everything was built around her, and... it's all crumbling into pieces. I feel alone and broken, and I have to fix myself because no one is going to do it for me. I'm on my own here. Time to face the world.

I Am The Ram

*Just so you all know:
- The party was cancelled, since two of the five people invited couldn't come. I've decided to have it over the summer instead.
- Things with Patrick are very confusing right now. I just want to see him at this point, he'd make everything better.
- No, I will not talk about what happened.
- I am deleting all comments and deviations and journals and shit in my inbox. If there's something you wanted me to see, send a link through a note or something.
- Don't expect me to respond to much*